Sunday, October 17, 2010

No you may not, mommy!

Nursing Katelyn has been very different than when I nursed Joslyn. Besides the whole Reflux thing, what I was able to do with Joslyn I am NOT allowed to do with Katelyn.

With Katelyn, she FORBIDS me from having ANY form of conversation. If I do attempt to talk, she will detach herself (and not very nicely) and refuse to continue on that side.
Now this rule does apply to herself. She is exempt from this rule and she is allowed to have conversations (perhaps with herself or maybe my "biddy") without punishment.

Also, Joslyn would ever so nicely remove herself when she was finished and snuggle with me for a few more minutes. Katelyn is sooooooo opposite! When she is done, she will remove herself (sometimes not so nicely)  and turn herself over (very similar to an alligator rolling with her meal......yeah really!) and try to escape!

Awwwwww the joys of breastfeeding!!! hehe

How about you? What rules does your little one have?

Friday, October 15, 2010

My story of loss

Today is "pregnancy and infant loss awareness day". To many people it is just another Friday, but to many it is a special day of remembrance. I am in that category. It is a day to remember our first two babies (both lost in the first trimester), a day to remember the first dreams of being a parent, and a day to remember all of the babies who are now angels.

Our first two babies were lost 5 months apart.

Our first baby, Lima Bean, (left us at 7.5 weeks) was a missed miscarriage. My body kept on "being pregnant" until 9 weeks before I began to bleed. I needed to have a D&C three days after my miscarriage was confirmed.

Our second baby, Baby Heart, (left us at 6.5 weeks) was a "normal" miscarriage. Both babies had heartbeats and grew normally, but sadly were not strong enough to make it.

So today, I light two candles. To show our first two babies that they will never be forgotten. They are still loved  and will remain part of our family.

Lover Bean - October 2006
Baby Heart - March 2007