Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Down one more....

I know that I can not breastfeed forever, I know that Kitkat can not be a teenager and still be breastfeeding. But why is it that I have such mixed feelings about weaning her down?! Now when I say weaning down... I do not mean weaning off...... As you might remember I am a scheduled nurser. I nurse my babies on a schedule..... same times every day. More or less Mommy Lead feeding. However, my girls do and did tell me when it is time to eat... which I still find pretty funny. Cranky baby?? Look at the clock.... oh well yeah it is time to eat! hehe

So 2 months ago I took away one feeding, which brought Kitkat from 6 feedings to 5. She did really well.... and so did I (hehe.) I then decided that at 15 months I would take away another feeding... well then at her 15 month well visit she had a cold and an ear infection.... so I decided to hold off on that plan. It is now 2 weeks later and she is healthy again. So 2 nights ago I stopped her 5th feeding. I am not crying over it...... but I still feel as though my heart is aching.... although that could be all the extra breastmilk that I am producing and not releasing!

Now to be honest, I did not plan this whole weaning thing out well enough. I should have staggered which feedings I was going to take away. But instead, so far, I have taken away her last 2 feedings of the day. Which means she last nurses at 4 pm and wont nurse again until 7 am the next  morning! OMG I swore I had someone else's breasts when  I woke up day one.. someone with way bigger breasts and cement filled implants! (No I do not have implants but you get the image!)

So far though.... she is doing well. Since it was a "sleep feeding" (she would nurse while already asleep) I do not think she even notices the last feeding has been taken away. Luckily her night sleeping has not been interrupted and she is still sleeping all night. However.. funny story.... On the first night she was asleep and it was just about the time I normally pick her up and nurse her. She opened her eyes WIDE and looked at me. I got nervous, thinking she was wanting to eat.... but she went back to sleep within seconds. Hehe
My husband looked at me and said "What was that all about?" All I could do was shrug! Hehe.
She must have, subconsiouly, known something was missing and knew it was time to nurse.

So now she is down to 4 feedings a day...... maybe by next week I wont have cement milk bags when I wake up! But knowing me.......... prob not!

Maybe by next week my body will adjust to this change and I wont feel sore all day long! I swear it is all she can do to keep up during the day to the amount of milk I have. Like right now... it is 3:30 pm and I have 30 minutes until she nurses again. But I already FEEL my milk wanting to be FREED!

4 comments:

  1. Goodness me, don't us a mummies have a lot to think about. It's sounds to me like you are doing a brilliant job. I still b/f my 3.5 year old, and everything has balanced out quite well. But I do rememeber being engorged when she decided to drop a feed in the day ( just because she felt like it) Obviously planning feeds for your little one works really well.
    Our bodies are so clever.
    Have a beautiful day with your baby xJo

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  2. Thanks Panaloon. I am happy to say I no longer have cement filled implants in the morning....but I still feel a bit fuller during the day.

    3.5 yrs! Wow congrats and way to go! That is fantastic!

    Thank you for commenting and welcome to mummies nummies!

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  3. Just wanted to say I understand the mixed feelings you had about weaning!! I just went through that when my 4.5 year old weaned...she rarely ever nursed anymore so I kind of initiated the last time because I wanted to remember it...I sort of dreaded that relationship- my FIRST nursing relationsihp- coming to an end and me not knowing until hindsight. It made me so sad to think about. But it went so much smoother than I expected.

    Sorry about the engorgement though!!! No fun!!!! Thankfully I'm still currently nursing my other two so I didn't notice any changes (though she wasn't nursing enough to make a difference I guess), but I have always wondered how I'd deal with the physical aspect if we did things differently.

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  4. @Joyfilled:

    Let me say CONGRATS on nursing up to 4.5 yrs! WOW! That is wonderful! I am still nursing Kit Kat (now 17 months) 4 times a day..... but thinking about taking one away soon. UGGGG but that is for another post! hehe

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